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April 30, 2008

Disgusting and Wrong

Well, it's not uncommon for me to read news. So, today, here's what I discovered.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080430/ap_on_re_us/polygamist_retreat;_ylt=AkRr5kYpSK4c_feFYUK75C5vzwcF

Essentially, the basis for the removal of children at the FLDS compound was abuse of young and teenage girls. Though not public and possibly not conclusive, sexual and physical abuse has taken place on boys and girls, while the majority of teenage girls are pregnant - even though the FLDS spokesman keeps calling "Liar" and claiming some are actually adults. Regardless, these girls were pregnant before, the boys were not excepted from abuse, and the outcome is not religious persecution.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080430/ap_on_re_us/church_children_seized;_ylt=AlQvaxffmi53s7h2oJ7fNhFvzwcF

A man in New Mexico claims he's the returned Lord Jesus Christ AND he's admitted to having sexual relations with underage followers. Three children (two girls and a boy) with a fourth agreeing to speak to authorities have been removed from his compound.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080430/ap_on_re_us/fugitive_arrested;_ylt=AkiEdvGqS5_R8czl.lI7z5tvzwcF

A mom of three, 34 years later, has been caught and put in jail. Her husband of 23 years tells the press that this is tearing his family apart even though the woman walked out of a correctional facility at the age of 19 after serving less than one year of a 10 to 20 year sentence. She is currently being held in San Diego waiting for extradition to Michigan.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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Updated IOTW -- book review -- T.A. Pratt's Poison Sleep

I went and did it again... I updated IOTW with a new book review. Read T.A. Pratt's latest, Poison Sleep, and ... well, go and look.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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First Day of Classes - Spring Term

Well, today was my first day of classes for Spring Term. Technically, yesterday was the FIRST day of classes, but I slept through yesterday so that makes today my first day of classes. Today was the start of Doctrine and Covenants and Deductive Logic where we learned (in 25 minutes or less) what an argument really is. This was illustrated by a Monty Python sketch where John Cleese and one of the other Pythons (no one could remember which one) were having a five minute argument. The not-John Cleese character stated, essentially, an argument is a conclusion supported by assertions. This was funny. We laughed. The professor (who is defending his thesis this summer - I think) shared some additional examples of arguments and not-arguments and then class was done.

Truth told, writing that (and I write very quickly) took longer than the class period did, today.

However, we will get to do readings and assignments and practices and in the end, we will get to turn much of that in and get graded on it. The one thing I found interesting about the Logic class was how the professor decided to approach the first day: "How many of you are here preparing to take the LSAT?" Most of the class raised their hands and he followed that up with, "How many are going to take the LSAT soon?" Fewer hands this time, but still... the majority of students were there in preparation for the LSAT, which, interestingly enough, does not negate them also being there as Philosophy majors.

Erin has told me, in the past, that a large percentage of Philosophy majors intend to go into law. That disturbs me for some reason; and yet, I still want to take the Logic classes (did before the waving of second language requirement) and look forward to this exercise is Deductive and then Predicate Logics.

Actually, along those lines, we decided that I should take Predicate Logic in the summer rather than in the fall. The reason: scheduling. Since we will be having a child in the early part of the semester and since Erin is also trying to work on her Master's degree at Westminster College in Salt Lake City, having the time (in the late afternoon early evening) where I am not in class clears up some of what Erin needs so she can travel to school and I can take over baby responsibilities.

What I think I would like to accomplish is finding a non-BYU writing job that will let me work mornings before school (currently set aside for Erin to work after baby) that will also allow us the latitude to do the things we'd like to do. Truth told, this is the final stretch, I have a handful (actually a little more) of classes and then I am done with BYU. This is both bittersweet and happy all at the same time. I don't plan to walk, nor do I plan to arrange my life to walk, the school can mail me my diploma, and in the end, I will move on to the next steps and next stages as soon as I can when I am done. I am just saying, I would like to have something set up for work before the end of the year so I can transition, quickly, into the new job.

Regardless, I believe that things will be okay, we will get to move into the new courses of action and life will be wonderful. Along the way there will be hurdles and hardships. Having a child is only going to add to the need to coordinate and the stress associated with providing for a family. But, outside of all the negative things that one can associate with a new baby (e.g. cost and time) I understand that the unquantifiable benefits far outweigh the negatives and make for a good life.

And, it also influences me to want to find stable, good paying, employment for the long term. Crazy! I know.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 29, 2008

On Obama

The other day I was speaking to my mother who had, in turn, spoken to an old family friend. The friend said something to the effect of, "Obama is not patriotic," and then backed that up with he does not salute the flag and he does not pledge allegiance. As a result, a vote for Obama is a vote for someone who is anti-American.

As a quick side note, I think it is interesting that G.W. has influenced the nation so wholly that to do anything in direct opposition to the majority opinion (or perceived majority) is anti-American. Don't support the president's policy, you're anti-American. Don't support tax cuts, you're anti-American. Don't support the wars, you're anti-American. I think we forget that to be American is to have a wide variety of thoughts, ideas, and etc. and as a result anti-American has become a part of the vocal lexicon when we disagree with how an individual chooses to express his or her individual patriotism.

Back to Obama.

Obama is not patriotic because he chooses to express himself... how?

Well, I went online and looked up the whole not saluting the flag (something I am as likely as not to do) and he does not recite the pledge of allegiance (again, something I am as likely as not to do... I mean, walking across campus I don't stop nor do I turn toward the giant flag near the administration building). However, as I looked online I came across: http://blogs.abcnews.com/politicalradar/2007/11/obama-says-flag.html.

Essentially, what this does is take the whole flap back to its origins. Obama and (at the time) the other Democratic Party candidates. Obama was filmed not saluting the flag when everyone else was doing so. When asked about this, he said, "That was during the national anthem," he went on to say, "I was taught by my grandfather that you salute the flag during the pledge of allegiance and you sing during the national anthem." Truth told, this is a good rule of thumb. Fortunately, at the link above (copied here) you can watch the video of the event in question and read his comments.

So, once I'd established this information and the origination of the accusation, I called my mother back who'd read a newspaper my dad had handed her. This newspaper is highly conservative and is definitely anti-Democrat. The outcome, after reading it, was that my mom had come to her own decision that the information she'd received from the family friend originated through the newspaper she'd read (a gift from some people that my parents know and not something they want ... even though my dad reads it whenever it shows up). However, knowing where information comes from and with support of the information I found, the determination was that information (outside of being highly inflammatory) was more about the Revered Wright and about anti-Democratic sentiment with mudslinging and yellow journalism.

As a result, I was for the man before, and am still for the man now.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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Hatch Art

Okay, I would take a picture of the hatch I put into the ceiling of the bathroom, but don't really enjoy taking pictures and posting them on this website. Doesn't mean that Erin won't, I don't' know if she will or not, but... you know, that's up to her whether or not she wants to show the world what I did. And yes, this is a lot like refrigerator art.

Anyway, the process and day was a bit interesting. You can read yesterday's entry about that. However, going to bed was a relief, and getting up this morning proved to be impossible. I didn't feel well, my body hurt in odd places, and all I could do was think about was going back to sleep. I do recall my phone beeping intermittently... possibly as a result of reminders that the Spring Term was starting today AND as a result of messages being sent to the phone. The one that caught my eye, AT&T received the paperwork for the rebate on my phone and will now spend eight weeks processing it. Experience does not bode well for this process... at least, however, they decided to let me know they got the paperwork. This would be refrigerator art for Erin if we took pictures of her putting that together.

One problem, and its not necessarily a problem, is that the bathroom is now seriously bright. I put in a new exhaust fan with light and some new light bulbs and... well... I don't think the blind would necessarily be blind in there now.

Was admiring the outcome this morning. Even some of the spackling I did to hide some of the damage to the ceiling I caused... well, was a result of fixing the hole, and it's actually turned out pretty well. Still need to do some things, and Erin is talking about painting in there now with bathroom appropriate paint; but for the most part, I think it look good. Of course, the hatch is set a little to the side, which is not happiness, especially as I made sure the hatch door was the same width as the framing in the ceiling... but it is also ignorable.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 28, 2008

The Hole in the Ceiling

So, when Erin moved into our apartment a bit over a year ago we discovered that there was a water leak from the upstairs and, in order to prevent mold and other things, I tried (at first) opening the panel in the ceiling and then ended up putting my fist through it and breaking it out. The outcome is that there has been a hole in the ceiling for some time now with Erin tacking up a pillow case (that is now in the garbage) to hide the hole.

Realizing that I had a day in between the end of one semester and the beginning of the Spring Term, Erin (strongly) suggested that I fix the two things (in the bathroom) that needed fixing. First, the hole in the ceiling that had (though not recognized) celebrated its first birthday. And second, the exhaust fan that died on us several months ago (in part due to Erin running it non-stop twenty-four seven).

So, first thing this morning, I woke up and moved cars around so Erin could go to work and then, after she left, took down the old and rotting pieces of the hole in the ceiling. This included taking out some of the drywall around the hole and then cleaning up that mess (in case Erin or her brother decided to come home while I was out).

At that point, I drove to Herriman to borrow some tools from Jared. Mostly power tools to expedite the cutting and reconstruction of the hole. On the way home I stopped at The Home Depot and purchased some of the things I needed to fix the hole and replace the fan. Fortunately, before leaving this morning I took measurements so I'd know what sizes of what I needed, wood, lengths, and the dimensions of the exhaust fan.

When I got home (with a knife I could cut more of the drywall with) I finished cutting out the excess drywall and measured up the hole with one of the two 21 inch wide pieces of wood to make sure it would fit inside. Once that was established I cut out the middle layer of wood and then trimmed and cut the center out of it so that (all said and done) there would be an access to the pipes (the reason for hole to begin with) and then stuck it up into the hole to build out the framing of the hole.

The next step was to put the pieces of the middle section into place. Three pieces with a total of four forty-five degree angle cuts. They were glued and nailed into place. This was followed by the top panel (on hinges and with a latch)... all of which was painted (primed really) white.

After I painted my hands and the wood white I started the process of installing the new exhaust fan-slash-light. This proved to be ... interesting as the wiring was odd. I kept installing and uninstalling and installing and uninstalling the exhaust fan trying to get it to work when it was in place. This was frustrating and time consuming and allowed the paint to dry sufficiently so that I could put the panel to finished the ceiling portion of the labor.

Once that was in I returned my attention to the exhaust fan, got it working, and in. That was a relief. As soon as I had electric light that did not consist of my biting the end of a flashlight, I started spackling the wall around the new portal to the pipes... this was the point Erin got home.

All in all, not exactly what I wanted to be doing. Truth told, construction is not my thing. Don't enjoy it. And yet, much cheaper than paying someone to do it for us. Granted, this all comes out of rent, we don't own the house, and I do things around the place, in part, because we feel this is a really great deal on rent and utilities and such. The outcome, I do the work, Erin feels better, the landlords don't have to pay someone a ton-o-money, and I don't have to deal with people I don't know coming into my pad (our pad).

Anyway, I got to spend my day fixing things I haven't gotten around to for some time. Tomorrow I get to go back to classes. This will be interesting. Good times.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 26, 2008

Updated IOTW -- continuation of last week

I updated IOTW this morning with a continuation of last weeks theme. Will need to go over and make sure both link to each other.

Go. Read. Enjoy.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 25, 2008

Final Words

Well, James graduated yesterday and today. My parents got Erin a Graduate Program that lists her name. I left it in her car on my way to work. I hope she is excited. The parents, though, were in town for a couple of days for James's graduation and headed home today.

This week has been interesting. For starters, Erin's brother moved (temporarily) into our second bedroom-slash-office. That was fun. We weren't really using it and had started a bunch of discussions on how to make the space more baby friendly to be used as a nursery for when little camper comes along and now we have a camper staying there until the end of the month.

School starts up, again, for me on Tuesday. I have, as yet, not bothered to go out and purchase the book(s) for the classes I am taking. This is not a good thing; it is, however, not necessary as yet. Erin might actually have the book I need for the class and need to compare what is needed to what she has. Though, truth told, with my luck the book will be very different that what she used for the same class.

I will probably buy a Triple Combination that matches the New Testament I used for my Honors New Testament class. It can sit, all it wants, on the school books shelf with the other school related books that I have been using and keeping.

Truth told, this term I am hoping is better than the last semester. I have to say, the preceding semester was really difficult for me. Not difficult in the sense that any of the classes was overly difficult, but rather in the sense that they didn't seem to fit in well, the way tests were proctored was ... somehow wrong, and in the end I don't really feel as though I got a lot out of the semester.

Granted, I did enjoy (for the most part) the History of the English Language class I took. The professor was very good at his subject matter; though, his attention span was interesting. We used a couple of books that I found entertaining to read and with a depth that seemed appropriate to the subject material - even though the professor described the book(s) as rather dry and dense.

On the flipside, I am excited to be taking the two logic classes I am scheduled for in Spring term and Fall semester. In truth, looking at theoretical changes in science have come from observation and appropriate application of logic. Whether or not I ever use this, I am interested and excited to have it as a part of my life.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 24, 2008

Stealing an Election

The first time I voted was in 1992. I was 18. Had the blood boiling. And I wanted to see change. Bill Clinton was running against Senior Bush and Ross Perot decided to fund a 3rd party alternative to the corruption he saw in politics. I voted Perot and the Republican's claimed that Perot's inclusion in the race stole the election for Clinton. Four years later I voted for Dole, Perot ran again... but his staying power and interest had waned which, eventually led to him leaving the party he started. The first G.W. election (against Gore) saw the Democrats cry foul for two reasons: 1) G.W.'s campaign sued to get the recount in Florida stopped and AlGore gave into pressure and bowed out; and 2) the Democrats claimed that the Nader influence on the election was (in part) what caused the election to be stolen in favor of G.W. Four years later, Nader was back, again (like Perot) interest had waned and he was no longer applicable to the national debate (as, during this election, he is even less applicable on the national stage), and the Democrats again claimed that G.W. stole the election.

I guess the Democratic Party, as a whole, has not learned from the past. In this instance, though, I am under the impression that HRC (Hillary Rodham Clinton) did not learn the lessons of a third candidate on the elections. Instead of a determined central leader for the Democratic Nomination, we have a battle going on. Every time HRC makes some headway, she claims she is hearing the voice of the people chanting for her to move forward. She holds up Florida and Michigan - two early primaries she won because she did not remove her name from the ballot and in Michigan she went against the party wishes and campaigned anyway. In short, she was unopposed in Florida and Michigan.

The voices of the people have spoken out. What they are saying is: We want Obama. Yet, HRC hears a different chant. Her campaign manager hears a different chant. And her avid supporters all hear a different chant.

Tuesday, in Pennsylvania, she beat Obama by about 9 percentage points in the primary. This, according to HRC, is a resounding cry for her to continue forward. What she chooses not to share is that in the month(s) prior to this primary, she squandered a lead over Obama... or more accurately, Obama's national popularity transferred to the Pennsylvania primary and he moved HRC from an insurmountable double digit lead to nine points.

This is not a public that is resoundingly behind HRC. Rather, it is a public that supports her continued bid but not enough to whittle away at Obama's delegate lead. As we move through the rest of the primaries (thankfully only until June) most of the remaining states are Obama leaning and though we had a series of HRC wins, Obama will continue to make inroads and statements to the Super Delegates and the Nation that he, and not HRC, is the Democratic Party candidate.

HRC, though, is choosing her own interests over the interests of the party. This is a party that is convinced they can do better with Iraq, Afghanistan, and world politics (as well as national politics) than G.W. has done. I don't disagree with them... in the right leaders. What HRC is doing, though, is not unifying the base of supporters behind the designated candidate (Obama has it and regardless of HRC's rhetoric, the Super Delegates will back him), but detracting from the race in the vain hopes of become her parties de facto nominee. She wants to be the first woman as president, which makes her the first female senator that becomes president, and the first first lady who became president, and probably a hundred other firsts. This is vanity and not a sincere interest in her party or her country. HRC has an agenda and she will follow that agenda no matter what.

For all intents and purposes HRC lost Pennsylvania Tuesday. Sure, she had most of the vote, but she did not have the state. Had the primary season allowed, Obama could've whittled her base down further. He's learning from past mistakes and be careful about what HRC is allowed to get away with - to include her infamous 3 a.m. red phone ad - an assertion, on her part, that she is not more qualified for than her party opponent... or McCain.

HRC could only win, in Pennsylvania, if she succeeded in gaining more ground and keeping her base of supporters. She didn't. And she lost. She will continue to loose and, I predict, that by Indiana and North Carolina will erode the gains (not significant) HRC got Tuesday. I also predict that the Super Delegates will continue to back Obama and, in the end, Obama will find a moderate running mate, male, white, and probably from the Northeast or Upper Midwest (think Ohio, Indiana, Michigan...) as a running mate. Part of me also wants to predict that HRC, if she does not secure, sufficiently, the Democratic nomination, will launch a 3rd party bid for the presidency.

When Clinton was in office the rumor sites and news services would, occasionally, spread rumors that he was so vain he wanted to find a way to stay in office. I don't know whether any of those rumors were true and I don't care. As a nation we allow a person two terms (or ten years) in office... no more, and the people, regardless of how much a president is liked, will not support a third term (or more than ten years). Speculation doesn't matter... what does matter is that HRC is desperate for this post, she is desperate to win, and as a result of her desperation, she can (and I believe is willing to) divide her party to try and secure the spot.

This speculation is not unheard of. Ex-presidents and parties have done this a lot. Reading about American Government, one of the reasons Lincoln made it into the White House was because the Whig party split between North and South and ran two different candidates. The nation was divided. Our nation is divided and we don't need a precursor or a return to the president that started this division. Sure, we claim that G.W. is the great-divider of the nation, but Clinton was not loved by all and the political right hated him, refused to support him, and did all that they could to oust him. HRC and McCain as members of the political establishment will ultimately do the exact same thing. Nothing changes with the devil's we know. Granted, nothing may change with the devil we don't, but my money (and unless you are my wife I don't lose bets generally) is on Obama as the man who, like JFK, like Reagan, can unite the country behind him. Neither of these leaders were great micro managers, they were, however, great motivators and at this point I believe we need to be motivated to do better.

HRC divides this country.

Not only that, but she is interested in herself and only herself. Sure, she can stand up in front of a crowd and make them feel as though the world is going to hell in a hand basket; she can share harrowing stories of depravity with the health care system; and she wants you to think that she is the only person who is capable of doing the job.

What I will be interested to see, in the long run, is whether or not the $10,000,000 HRC claims has been donated in the 24 hours after Pennsylvania is true where that demographic of people came from. He campaign has been operating in the red for some time and she has had to personally loan money to her campaign (at least five million dollars) which she and Clinton can afford as they made more than one hundred million last year.

If HRC does launch an independent bid for the White House, she will probably be one of the most successful independent's in the history of the country.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 23, 2008

Completed Winter 08

Well, I am now done with Winter Semster 08 at BYU. Yay me. On the plus side I passed all of the classes I needed to pass; on the negative, I bombed Spanish and didn't do as well in any of the classes I had. On the plus, I am on track to graduate in December and Spanish (French and any other language I've attempted to learn) is now a memory. Beyond that, I have a few days (until next Tuesday, the 29th) to relax and then I am back in classes with Doctrine and Covenants and Deductive Logic. The former meets four of the five days a week for an hour a day (yay!) and the latter meets three days a week for two hours a day (again, yay!).

Deductive Logic is my (not so simple) way of taking care of the second language requirement or Languages of Learning... and, truth told, it's not very simple as I have to take Deductive Logic, pass it, then (in the fall) take Predicate Logic and pass. Erin took both for her degree and now I am following her to get mine done (it was either that or calculus and I have less than no desire to take Calculus).

However, with all that said... I did get to spend the past three to four days studying like a madman for the tests I took yesterday and today. None of those tests were home runs (yes, a simple sports metaphor); but given effort and time and disgust with the schedule (overall) I am happy with the outcomes.

In short, I am off the educational clock until Tuesday and then we do it all over again.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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Updated IOTW -- book review

I updated IOTW with a reprinted book review on Angels and Demons. Head, read, enjoy.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 22, 2008

Quick Blurbs

Well, we are in finals season here at the good 'ol BYU... which means I am in the middle of the end of (perchance) the worst semester of schooling I have ever taken of schooling, EVER.

However, at this writing, I am down one test with three more to go... one of which will be done this evening the other two tomorrow morning sometime (as I get to spend a large chunk of the night studying... and possibly in the morning as well) so that I can do better than I am currently expecting. We will see how that goes.

One gripe I have, though, is the idiots who decide to use my comments section (on this website) as a place to spam the world. My previous entry already had a spam comment posted to it and so, as has become my M.O. now, I turned off comments on that post. What do these people think they are accomplishing? I mean, most blogging software knows how to filter out spam. Sure, some get past the filter, and that is annoying, but the majority of spam related comments are filtered into a different folder and deleted. One would think that anyone who has visited my site and decided to start the spamming process would've bothered to look at the (nearly) 900 entries I've made over the years and then decided against adding my blog to their list. Apparently, however, the idiots in the world have not realized that I am going to delete all comments and block commenting on various posts (and on the whole site if it becomes too much of a pain just as I did trackbacks) if it becomes too much of a pain in the patookas.

On top of that, there has been an increase in the amount of SPAM I receive in my personal email inbox where people have "found" my site and either determined that I should link to them and they will write me original content (what the *bleep*); or that my site is not visible to or on the major search engines (quick lesson (skip to end of parenthesis if you don't want to know this): there are three major search engines that generate almost all internet traffic and most all other search engines use these three to some extent or another; they are: Google, MSN, and Yahoo! and of those three the third one may loose its autonomy in the very near future making two major search engines while the first generates for more search results than the other two combined). And that they can list me for a fee or create content if I will add a link to my site for them.

The last person who offered to create content for me was rather rudely informed that he is an idiot and didn't bother to look at my site given that this site (www.sw-c.com) is written solely by me (though I have offered other people room to post rebuttals or opinions - actually a standing offer, in case anyone was curious) and that what he had as a website was not of any interest to me and searching or reading my blog at any point in its four year history would show the person that I would not be a good resource for him. Truth told, he was trying to generate a better search ranking and as I rank #1 in the search terms I desire to be #1 and in the top 10 on secondary terms, and in the top 30 on tertiary terms, well... the offer was rather idiotic on his part.

And I told him so. Nor was I nice about it.

Sure, living on the internet makes one vulnerable to spam. It is a part of the interweb life. However, I can be sick of it and I can be frustrated by it. And truth told, I am sure that as I build links and popularity to my sites this will only get worse.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 21, 2008

Reconsidering the Already Considered

For those who know me, the idea that I don't write on Sunday's is, in part, an extension of some religious beliefs. The belief could, actually, originate from study of the Old Testament; but truth told, me writing on Sunday's, especially fiction, is something that I've not really thought a lot about outside of deciding, some years ago, that it was probably a bad idea for me. There have been exceptions to this notion, like working on papers for school or writing journal entries; but for the most part, I don't write on Sunday's.

Well... I didn't write on Sunday's and then it hit me, a while back, that some of the writing I do, creative, fiction, is actually accomplished on the Sabbath. And I don't feel bad about this. Yes, there is a part of me that wants this to be my job, but I can't deny that as I am sitting in places, at home, at church (on occasion) and as my life includes more and more cool technical gadgets - and low tech things like the small moleskine notebook I'm writing a story in; I also find myself stealing time using these things to be creative.

What this has done is cause me to reflect on the personal rules I have. One of those rules is working on Sunday. That is not going to change. I am not going to go out and find a job, or accept one, that inherently forces me to work Sundays (and I would be reticent to accept one that made me work Saturday's as well); however, what does it mean that I am exercising a creative muscle that I was blessed with? I (very) recently gave up the freelance gig I was doing so I could focus on my real job, school, Erin and other things... so, at present I am not being paid to write anything.

But whether or not I am being paid to write something, freelance, full-time, or otherwise, does it really affect the creative output that I have been working toward for so many years? Am I really this lost individual, or do I become that way, because I allow myself the pleasure of writing creatively when the opportunity presents itself? Honestly, I don't think so.

Granted, my writing creatively will not foster more updates (7 days a week) on this blog or more updates (than the two I strive for and three I hope for) on IOTW... and yet, I do write every day of my life. To deny that I write, to suggest that journals or papers for school or other methods of release when it comes to the written word is not an absence of writing, it merely repositions what I am writing and in what form that creativity comes out.

I will not accept freelance or real work that requires me to sit at a computer and work through my Sunday's. I am not going to supplant my church going and my worship with fiction or creative writing. There are things that are not going to change; at the same time, I feel as though I am going to allow those stolen moments, those periods where I get to escape into another world as I am writing, to become slightly more prevalent in my life.

Will this become my primary Sunday activity? No. I don't think so. There are so many other things that take place on Sunday from church to the (occasional) family meeting that I am not, particularly, interested in spending entire afternoons writing thousands of words in the hope that I am progressing some story or book or project to the next stage. Rather, I think this will turn into periods of inspiration or enlightenment on a certain project where I work through that idea and then move on to the next thing that should or needs or whatever to be done on a Sunday afternoon.

What does this all mean? Probably very little, honestly. I don't think this is an earth-shattering flow of thoughts or pattern of activity. I don't think that I am going to be sent to Hades for t his. And I am pretty certain that nothing of any significance is going to be accomplished between midnight and midnight on a Sunday... that's just not my schtick and its certainly not my style. I do hope that this helps progress me to my greater goals and objectives and that it allows me to accomplish what I've been trying to accomplish for the bulk of my life... to write fiction professionally.

Truth told, I just like to write and as a result of that personal area of enjoyment, I look for opportunities where I can take the time to do that where I am not taking away from other things like school, or my job, or my family and as a result, Sunday's have become a day where I get to touch on that, briefly, and then move onto something else.

Quite possibly for no one else but me, this has been an interesting mental exercise and change of paradigm... to no longer apply strict adherence to the Mosaic Law in any area of my life, what a change.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 19, 2008

Updated IOTW -- process

I updated IOTW today with post on the process of putting together the idea... this is probably the first of a couple few posts.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 18, 2008

The Tragedy of the FLDS sect

The FLDS (Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints) deserves what they are getting. I mean that as the sect or religion as a whole and not the collective group of individuals. However, with that, I have no desire to see the children returned to either parent -- ever.

You see, the law of the land, Texas, Utah, Arizona, or just the U.S.A., is that you do not have multiple wives AND that underage marriage and sex is strictly forbidden. It does not matter what these women feel (the mothers), it does not matter whose law they are following (the members of the FLDS church), it does not matter in any way what these people feel when it comes to the execution of the law. All the parents can hope for, at this point, is that they a) leave the FLDS church and petition the state for custody of their children; or b) that the children are placed in good homes that will foster the children in a way that will strengthen them and not tear them down or apart.

Unfortunately, I don't see either as being possible... not for a lot of years.

You see, the FLDS church is an offshoot of the LDS church. The "F" stands for fundamentalist. They believe that the LDS church was wrong about eliminating plural marriage. The outcome was that a group of disgruntled members of the LDS church started the fundamentalist church... technically a sect. They appoint a new prophet, who's authority is passed along through the prophet's male lineage. Until you get to Warren Jeffs, the leader of the Fundamentalist LDS church, who was arrested, tried, convicted, and is now awaiting trial in other states, for accessory to abuse of a minor.

When the writing was (clearly) on the wall, the FLDS church moved a large portion of their operations to Texas, near San Angelo onto an 1800 acre Hope For Zion (HFZ) Ranch as well as building a temple on that property. It is the largest structure in the immediate area. What the FLDS church did was to create a room within this temple where religious marriages between a man and young girl could be consummated within the confines of their holy edifice.

One of the elements that exists in this is that the FLDS church has removed themselves, almost wholly, from practicing anything that resembled the religion that Joseph Smith started. In truth, the religion subverts the rights of women, it keeps them in ignorance, and makes them subservient to their husband. The problem, though, is that the LDS faith has always advocated the equality of women; and the FLDS church not only subverts the rights of women, it also heaps upon them multiple wives and then keeps them behind walls and convinces them that they are evil for wearing makeup and for wanting something to wear other than a prairie dress.

The problem with the FLDS is that they marry off young women to older men the moment they begin to menstruate. The reason for the room in the temple for consummation is, in part, to tie it irrevocably to the religion. Since marriage is a religious institution (the state(s) are kept out of it) and since the first night of the marriage takes place in the most holy edifice of the religion, the Temple, then sex is a part of the religion. Refusing to have sex is denying the religion.

Age is a factor in this. The older a woman gets, the more independent, the harder it would be to convince that individual that what she is doing, having sex and babies, is in any way bad. And, truth told, I don't think that sex or children are bad; I do think that children have the right, and we, as adults, have the responsibility to ensure, that they grow up and are allowed to be children.

We all know (and if you are relatively new to the site... then here's news) that I believe that people don't become emotionally mature until they are 26 (or thereabouts). As a result, to marry someone off, and have her have children before she is even old enough to drive (not that she would be able or allowed to drive when she does turn 16) is criminal. The FLDS church breaks the law, and they deserve to be punished for breaking the law, but on top of breaking the law there is underage marriage, underage sex, and underage pregnancies. Because of this, it was a matter of time before the government got involved.

On Larry King Live, the other day, several of the mother's from the FLDS church were interviewed. Whenever Larry King asked a very specific question, the mother's repeated the same things over and over and over again... "We want our children back," and, "We feel bad about the government coming in and taking our kids."

One woman said, "My child is handicapped and only I can take care of him, I want him back."

There is a part of me that believes that there is some truth to what she is saying, that her son is handicapped and that she feels like she is the only one who can take care of him. Chances are, though, the child is going to receive considerably better care outside of the HYZ Ranch than inside of it. Do I doubt the love both mother and father has for their children? No. I do believe that they lost their rights as parents and as guardians when they allowed underage and under-prepared children to be married off and made pregnant.

Regardless of how the FLDS church acts or who gets married, the reason the HFZ Ranch was raided was not because of the illegal marriages, but because one of the girls who had been married off called authorities and told them she was pregnant and being abused. This sent officials into the compound and this is what caused the cascading series of events.

Is the FLDS church being persecuted? I don't think so. I think the persecution argument is a marketing ploy by lawyers and by the FLDS church to convince people that this is a simple religion that has done nothing wrong and should be allowed to exist in virtual obscurity. However, underage sex and pregnancy is abuse. Children are not prepared for the responsibilities of having babies. The outcome to this society is that yes, their way of life is being rejected and yes, the future of their society has been taken away; but no, they are not being persecuted.

More, their Temple is not a holy place. You cannot create a room specifically for the consummation of marriage and expect people to respect the religious institution as a whole. You cannot undermine the advancements of gender and expect people to stand back and ignore an ignorant population or gender. You cannot subvert a group of people (women) and not expect someone, sooner or later, to step in. And you cannot have this kind of closed environment and then claim that physical abuse does not happen.

This kind of society is one that would use physical punishment for children to keep them in line and for them to obey god's law. However, that abuse is not permissible in the law and as a result, the society does not deserve to be left autonomous. Societies that have followed the rule of law have been allowed to remain, within reason, outside of the normal, day-to-day, operations of law and society. One of these, of note, is the Amish community. And yet, they do pay taxes and they do follow the law, the Amish are not trying to subvert the law.

Follow the law and, chances are, your religion will be left alone. Choose to ignore and flaunt the law, and, chances are, your religion will be destroyed. We will not brooch underage marriage, sex, pregnancy, or murder for religion's sake. And in all of these areas there is sufficient evidence to suggest that the FLDS church has either done it or tried to do it.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 17, 2008

A Lack of Progressive Criticism...

I have a tendency to (knowingly) waste time surfing the internet. At times, this is all consuming and I don't pay a lot of attention to the people around me... though when Erin is present, I am more present with what I am meant to be doing... or just being aware of her. However, while surfing the internet, following personal interests, I've discovered that there are a lot of websites out there that showcase people who... well... really don't need to be showcased.

For example, earlier today I came across a site where some individual put together miniature landscapes with people (both men and women in each) suffering from some odd, and often other-worldly, malady. I've never been a fan of miniatures, and these, I've got to tell you, didn't really cause me to jump out of my seat and think, in any way, "This guy has talent." Rather, I just wondered what it was he was trying to accomplish and I moved on to another website.

What prompts this post, though, isn't miniatures, but rather PhotoShop armchair artists. Basically, there are large groups of people, complete with a lot of websites to support them, that will throw together what they call art in Photoshop and then post it online. In some cases, this is to receive feedback so that the wanna-be artist can improve his or her work; however, most of the time as you click through these sites, what you come up with is someone who wants to be recognized for their individual genius and not criticized. In short they are saying, "Look at me, look at me," and, "I achieve without trying."

Sure, in many cases I am disparaging people who have a great deal of talent and who work hard to improve themselves and want a forum where people can come and see their work. Most individual webpages, mine included, are not popular enough that publishing my work to the page will generate sufficient traffic and responses and, as a result, having a webpage to showcase work is okay; but you also need a community to show it too.

So, communities are born and people share their creations, writing, art, poetry, movies, and etc. with the world. People flock to these communities to share their work. They want feedback, but they don't want criticism. What is asked for, most frequently, and what is often a part of the ToS (Terms of Service) for most of these websites is to be polite and only say nice things about someone else's work. In short, these sites are saying, "We want you to post here and we don't want any chance for you to improve."

Now, that is a little harsh on my part. Though, in my defense, I believe that criticism is necessary for someone to improve. If I don't like something, but cannot express why I don't like it - me saying, "I don't like it," is not constructive in any way. However, it is allowable for me to comment, like that, on someone else's website.

Whereas, if I don't like something and I have a reason behind it:

Your artwork does not posses any skill while your selection of colors clash in such a way as to draw the observer, your audience, out of the artwork and away from what you are trying to accomplish... what are you trying to accomplish here?....

In this case, I would be considered a hostile reviewer and would, most likely, be asked to stop and move on to another website.

Because the online communities, at large, are so homogenized and simple in approach, focusing more on the broad community than a smaller group trying to develop and grow into better writers, artists, poets, and etc., the critical approach to review that is necessary for someone to improve gets lost in the ToS. The outcome, then, is not a movement toward improvement, but rather a movement toward popularity. The outcome is a static function of growth (e.g. no growth) rather than allowing the community, which is what Open Source and the Internet are supposed to do, help you improve.

In short, the motto of the internet is, frequently:

Many eyes improve quality

However, in this case, many eyes only spout popularity and do not allow for improvement or quality.

Often, what you will find is that people who want to improve will find people from outside the larger internet community that will assist and critique and criticize, which allows for the receptive person to grow in the desired skillset. At which point, these same individuals might post, request positive (only) feedback, and redirect people to galleries and individual websites where more (and better) work is showcased... as well as contact information and bio's.

Truth told, I would rather showcase my work in an environment I am in control of and can determine the kinds of feedback I get (outside of solicited feedback from Erin, parents, friends, and others) than to trust in the community of feedback much of the internet is meant to offer.

The internet is a good tool when used properly, but as a medium for improving skills, talents, and abilities, or to work toward set goals; the internet becomes a medium wherein people are easily lost and where those same skills, talents, and abilities atrophy and fade because of a lack of progressive criticism.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 16, 2008

New Phones

Well, the time has come to announce new phones. Yup. Erin and I both have new phones (and I have a new phone number, if I've not sent that to you yet, and you need it/want it because there is a need to get a hold of me, then you can email me and I will send it to you). The reason for the new phones is because I joined my parents-in-law's family plan. That was an easy decision with rather odd, and drawn-out, consequences. For example, Erin spent hours on the phone with our cellular provider (AT&T) trying to clear up a lot of problems, outstanding bills, and more.

The outcome was credits to the family plan, the AT&T rep ordering my new phone for me, and... well, Erin feeling highly satisfied with a job well done.

Erin decided to get a Samsung Blackjack II phone. It comes complete with the Windows Mobile OS on it. Before moving over to the Mac OS I was seriously considering this and had, naively, thought it would come with an independent or more Blackberry-centric OS on it... but, alas, it does not. What this means is that you have to purchase syncing software that interprets Windows syncing into the Mac. By the time we would've been able to (on my computer) get the phone to sync with my computer the cost was equal to...

The Palm Trio 680.

Since we can't afford to go for the iPhone (my preferred phone medium), I went for the Palm Trio 680. It arrived in the mail, today, which is why I am now blogging about the new phones. Granted, Erin's is thinner and more sleek and fits her personality to a pinch, mine is Titanium. I am still trying to figure out how to move things (like contacts) from the sim over to the phone, but I am able to use it, did figure out how to change the ring-tone on it, discovered camera and video capabilities, and have been txt-ing with it.

One of the main reasons I was asked, offered, and chose to move over to the family plan was because Jim (father-in-law) couldn't stand the thought of me not being able to just text whenever I wanted to. Granted, this is appealing... but this exists more, or as much for, Erin than it does for me. The reason we'd moved (and by we I mean Erin and me) away from txt-ing was because it was costing more to text than it was worth.

However, that has been rectified and we are moving forward.

This also marks the end of the semester. Finals start on Friday and go through Wednesday next week. I just looked and two of my finals (I scheduled one today) take place on Tuesday night... the latter of the two at p.m. This should prove to be fun.

What I need to do from now until next week is study, study, study for the finals I am taking. Two of the four I am not worried about. One of the four I am pretty certain I will fail, or get close to failing, and the fourth of the four can go either way. In all four cases, I need to sit down and study, study, and study.

As a result, I need to focus when I have the time to focus. Since school is out and since Erin works days, I can do much of the studying whilst Erin is at work. However, I do a lot of things while Erin is at work, none of them highly quantifiable... some of them include careful examination of the backs of my eyelids... but I do stuff.... Over the next week, that stuff will just have to be study.

Outside of that, we have received some suggestions for baby names. Keep 'em coming. Erin is focusing on a single name, at the moment, and suggested a middle name (unfortunately, names withheld because baby comes before public (or private) announcements) that I said, "Sounds like a hick name to me," she looked at me, said, "It's not a hick name," then followed it up with a few questions before moving on to more important things like my needing to fix the seat on the toilet so it didn't shift left and right under ones buttocks when attempting to... anyway.

The outcome, today, has been pretty good. The weather, yesterday, went from rather warm in the morning (I was in shirt sleeves) to ugly and cold and snowing in the evening. According to my mother, this afternoon, Utah's latest snow storm, in recorded history, was around May 18th. I am hoping, praying, that the snow and cold and weather is done for this winter season.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 15, 2008

Updated IOTW

I updated IOTW with a book review of The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell. Head on over and check her out.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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A Little More Detailed Entry

Well, as you may already know, Erin and I are having a little boy. We don't have any names for little boys, as yet... which proved to be an interesting few hours as we picked up license plates for my car (last night), ran to Wal-Mart, and did other things. It was interesting to suggest names and for various reasons nix each others suggestions. Granted, for a while, we were both suggesting complete nonsense names, but still, the process of locating a pool of names we both feel comfortable with to pull from is proving... interesting.

Erin's dad, Jim (no blog yet), suggested that people should be allowed to suggest names but they needed to provide a reason for the name they are suggesting. I agree with that, in part, but feel like the reason should be good and not something along the lines of. "I think it's cool," or, "Jordan can be used for boys and girls." In short, if you want to suggest a name, we are happy to receive the suggestion (though we reserve the right to keep our decision(s) quiet until child is born), but they have to be accompanied with a valid reason otherwise we delete and ignore the suggestion.

Truth told, I think the world was expecting Erin and I to have a little girl as our first baby. That has thrown me into a bit of a tailspin... some of the reasons are really more vain than anything else... well, I don't know if that is true (vanity), but one thing that gets me is that my family (brothers and sisters) have a billion boys. It seems that, against odds and nature, we are more likely to produce male offspring than female. This is not bad, as the male sperm are smaller, swim faster, and etc., but on the flip-side of that is the notion that nature generally produces more female babies than it produces male -- unless you are a Hattaway and then you produce male babies (note, brother Jared only has daughters).

As a result of that, I find myself rotating between disbelief and awe. We are having a boy and we don't know what is meant to come next. Okay, what comes next is preparing for a little boy to enter our lives full time. What comes next is for us to find some suitable names we can both agree on. What comes next is that we change our view of the situation (either through a paradigm shift or chakabuku (sp)) and move forward.

Honestly, I think Jim and Lisa (parents-in-law) are the most excited, followed by Erin. Haven't heard much on the line of her brother, and my mother was pretty happy for us, though, when last I spoke with her my dad had not found out the news. So... you know.... We are having a boy.

This really throws my world into a weird place. One of the big reasons: Boy Scouts of America. Now, one would think, "Just don't participate," and that would be great... until you realize that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints uses the BSA as it's activity area for young men. They start in the Cub Scouts, work their way up to Webelos, and then become Boy Scouts. When activities happen, at least in the US, they happen around the Scouting organization.

To come straight to the point, I am pretty opposed to this organization.

However, moving forward, I am not looking at baby Hattaway as an infant. I am looking at baby Hattaway as an infant, toddler, child, teenager, adult, and on. As a parent-to-be I want this kid to grow up happy and healthy and active and... well, a lot of things. And yet, the truth of the matter is, I am probably over-thinking the entire situation; which, interestingly enough, isn't going to stop the ol' brain from cranking away.

So, how do I feel? Ambivalent, scared, excited, frightened, and a lot more.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 14, 2008

Baby News

Erin and I went to her study appointment this morning... she is in the preeclampsia study. Anyway, as a part of the study, this morning, we got to go through another ultrasound. This one lasted a long time. The last one was about ten minutes. This one went more than thirty as the doctor (not a technician) went and checked every wiggle, widget, and digit. The baby does have ten fingers and ten toes. The doctor tells us that the movement we could see (and yes, it was captured on tape and will be transferred digitally for our families... meaning parents) eliminated a lot of problems that might exist for the baby.

The real outcome of this visit (well, for us) was to determine what the gender of the baby is. For the doctor it was, in part, to determine whether or not Erin was in the high-risk area for preeclampsia and to see how the baby was growing.... mostly Erin and preeclampsia.

What we learned:

We are having a boy.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 12, 2008

Updated IOTW -- Scivener Software

I updated IOTW today with a review of some writing software for the Mac. Head over and check it out.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 11, 2008

Remembering it This Way

I find it interesting that HRC talks (at all) about her Bosnia trip and has remembered it, differently, as a harrowing experience where she landed and had to leave the tarmac under gunfire. According to news reports, reporters, and videos, she landed, with her daughter, and walked, slowly, across the tarmac speaking to people, shaking hands, and then getting into cars. At no point, according to news reports, was she in any danger; nor could we expect that, as First Lady of the United States - a title, would she have been allowed to go to that country had there been the chance of her being shot down, shot at, or in any significant danger.

And yet, as a candidate for President, or wanna-be candidate, she uses this story to show that she's been in dangerous situations. This is not unintentional, and I am sure that HRC would like to believe that she has more experience on the international stage than she really does. As a candidate, with experience, she is about on par with Obama. Neither of them have a ton of experience leading states, leading nations, or interacting on the international stage. For that matter, neither does McCain. What we are trying to decide in this election is who is the best of a group of poor candidates to lead the country.

I make no bones about who I intend to vote for and who I want as president. I think that we should go in a completely different direction. Voting for McCain is a vote for G.W. and the current way of doing things. Voting for HRC is similar to voting for Bill Clinton, and his way of doing things. More, we know, in advance, that HRC will push and try to force through legislation that universalizes healthcare in this country. Not really my cup-o-tea either.

In the realm of legislation, though, HRC has also chosen to remember a story about a lady who was refused treatment at a variety of hospitals. When you look deeper, in the news, you discover that this woman (who has a name that HRC refuses to share) actually did receive treatment, was not refused, and did have complications that have nothing to do with the story that HRC chooses to share.

In the light of day, though, you start to look at a variety of instances with HRC that indicate that having her as President will be a lot like having Bill back in office. I didn't mind, so much, that he was president as talk radio and the news and news in general became very interesting. However, as a result of that presidency, I think the country was hurt... it was hurt in part because our current president has been allowed to run rampant with the appearance of being a god-fearing man, and with the allowances to go about attacking countries and tearing down dictatorships. Essentially, G.W. has become a temporary despot and we, the people, allow him to continue.

Granted, in the light of day, like HRC, he can do what he likes within the rule of law. I don't think G.W. has broken the law, at least, not within the light of the current press situation in the country... though I think that time (after he is out of office) will tell exactly what has taken place during his presidency. I can see a slow ebbing forth of information as people begin to realize the extent of this presidents actions that will ripple across the news and across the country for the next decade, at least.

HRC, though, is already proving that she will alter the facts for her own use and ends. In her case, the facts are fluid and she learned this, in part, with her husband as they lived in the White House. Granted, she is a powerful woman in her own right, but as a candidate and potential leader, to have someone rampantly share falsehoods in the light of day and in the light of increasing press and public scrutiny I honestly wonder how it is that HRC, Bill, or anyone else thinks they can get away with remembering things wrong.

The problem, though, is not that HRC remembers something one way or another, it is that she chooses to continue promoting it, allows her husband to promote it, and does nothing about it when the press call her on the table. I can understand a pet project - like health care - for someone, but that project is dulled and made less as a result of her embellishing experiences. I can understand her desire to show an understanding of international politics and expressing her experience in some way, but to fabricate a dangerous situation in Bosnia is a falsehood.

Moreover, HRC is not any more qualified than McCain or Obama to be there to answer the Red Phone at 3 a.m. None of them have the experience necessary to answer that phone and make an informed decision. Truth told, no incoming president has that experience regardless of whether he served as a governor, senator, or congressman. There are indicators that would suggest someone as being more capable - cabinet members, military experience, and such, but in this situation even McCain spent his military service as a POW and has a great deal of experience empathizing with the atrocities of war, but not in commanding men in battle or understanding what takes place in the war room.

With all of that, Obama is a dark horse. He is the one we know the least about. As a lawyer he was good at what he did. As a state senator, he was successful and followed the party line, which is to be expected. The man has the ability to unify people whereas McCain and HRC are both going to further divide this country. Sure, I am, at heart, far more conservative in the things I would like to see happen/happening, and I believe, at this point in the process, that the best man to support where I would like to see the country going is Obama - but that does not mean, at this point, he will be the president.

However, I do believe he has the overall support to get the nomination. You see, the Democratic Party has their own, unique, way of nominating a candidate. The candidates all go out and try to get the majority of states votes vying for a set number. The problem, though, is that in a tight race, neither candidate can accomplish all of the pledged delegates necessary to secure the nomination (as McCain has done for the Republican Party) which then lends itself to the Super Delegates. Super Delegates are a group of elected and party officials who can vote for whomever they like. Apparently, this caused a turnover of who received the nomination nearly forty years ago, the memory of which causes the Democratic Party's Super Delegates to declare who they will vote for (en mas) before there is a clear front-runner. At present, Obama is the clear front-runner, though both HRC and Obama are still getting Super Delegates offering their support.

In Utah news, the currently pledged Super Delegates (two women... there are actually six in this state... but I am referring to the women) are suggesting they will probably change their pledge from HRC to Obama. Jimmy Carter (past president - raised the price of peanuts and isn't considered a great president) has suggested he is ready to support Obama. Even a close Clinton friend and ally in the Governor of New Mexico has chosen to support Obama.

The writing appears to be on the wall. That writing is that Obama will be the next Democratic Presidential candidate. And yet, the race continues. People watch places like Pennsylvania and talk about how this could make or break Obama... and I don't care. He will do well enough between now and the Democratic National Convention to secure the nomination. HRC will obfuscate things as much as possible. She will pull tricks out of her hat. She will make a lot of people feel like she can take the helm. This almost has the feel of life or death to me.

Romney dropped out when he realized he couldn't win. He didn't try to undermine the party or the candidate and the news believes he is trying to become the Vice-President or to setup a presidential run in 2012 or 2016. And, in that instance, I think that's great. It doesn't matter, to me, whether or not McCain has Romney on the ticket, he doesn't get my vote unless Obama succumbs and puts HRC onto his ticket and then I won't support him for her.

The point to much of this is that we don't have a single person who can prove qualifications for president. In HRC's case, she chooses to remember things in a way that puts the appearance of experience. Because of her fluid way of thinking, speaking, and presenting, she can do as she pleases, but I am not interested in having her as the president. I am of the opinion that a) we need a female president, and b) we need a black president, and c) having either of these would be good for the country; but in the case of HRC as the first female president, I think it would hurt our country more than it would help.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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April 10, 2008

Myriad of Topics

So, Erin shared with me an experience she had the other day. Apparently a coworker of hers said something like, "Your husband knows about computers, right?"

"Yes."

"We should get together and our boys can talk computers and we can talk girl stuff."

"John doesn't enjoy talking about computers and we really don't like just hanging out with people."

Case closed. I hope.

Yes. It is true, I do know one or twelve things about computers. That comes from a few areas. First, I have worked either in building and direct support of computers; or have done a considerable amount of phone-related technical support. Second, I have worked for various software and computer related companies that allows me insight into the back-end aspects of computers.

Even as recently as January, this year, I worked for a company that (wanted to) supported Linux based systems. As an internet hosting company, it was interesting to watch and assist (though also far from enjoyable) customers as they called in for assistance with a lot of things related to their websites. Most of the calls were actually unsupported, but there were a lot of them and that is why I had a job.

With that, I had the opportunity to play with Linux a little more - and then when we purchased (me) a Macbook running on BSD, I've only spent a lot more time learning the command line interface (not DOS) and am enjoying it immensely.

What all of this means is that I have a healthy dose of curiosity that has, over the years, helped me in learning things like HTML, PHP, SQL and various other things. None of this makes me a professional, even though, at present, I am working as a webdesigner and have, as a result, spent most of my time doing security and running reports... the outcome, though has been an increase in various talents and abilities that (may) already exist.

On top of that, I don't enjoy not knowing something about the machine(s) I am using so I learn something, buy books, surf websites, and become a bit more knowledgeable. The thing is, I don't really talk a lot about what interests me. There are some exceptions, I have a blog dedicated to writing and if the right person comes along I will discuss writing with him/her - lately that's been Erin. I've done it with my mom and others, but I am not interested in a discussion on writing or computers or software or the internet or one of a thousand other things that I have my hand in.

I am willing to talk about cars... somewhat. But even that has a limit and I am quickly disinterested.

When it comes to the outdoors, trails, camping, hiking, scuba diving, and many other topics, depending on the person and the need for a connection I might delve into these subjects, but, truth told, my interest in discussing things with people (in general) is at a nil. Sure, if Erin wants me to go out with her and another couple I will do it; and I will probably be polite and carry on a conversation (at least my side) about computers or cars or theater or a million-bajillion other things.

However, given my proclivities, I would rather sit at home not discussing these things with people and staring at my computer on the interweb or watching TV distinctly not enlightening people on my views, opinions, or ideas about the myriad of subjects I am overly qualified to discuss.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

Real Heroes Fly

April 9, 2008

Presenting the Numbers

I was asked, after I coalesced the numbers, to present them to one of the school's councils this morning. Yesterday I refused to make a commitment to show up as I don't have a lot of reasons to be at school before I need to be. On the plus side, it was (about) an hour of paid time as I shifted the graphs fr